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" They threat in vain; the whirlwind cannot awe
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Monday, October 18, 2021
The Tao Te Ching and Dorothy L. Sayers
Saturday, October 9, 2021
Thought for the day
Surrender!
I am reflecting on this pointer: surrender to this moment. It’s when I surrender in the now, that I find peace, joy, patience with others, total acceptance of others, and love. After all, that’s what love is, isn’t it? Love is total acceptance of “self” and others as we are in this moment. I put “self” in quotes as we now know that there is no real self, only a false, mind-made, human- constructed idea of a separate self with its petty, little ego and its self-involved stories and little dramas. Love sees the conditioned mind and “self” in others, and says, “Okay, that’s what’s there right now.”
We know that what we resist persists. My priest recently shared the gospel where Jesus talks about the destruction of the temple in Jerusalem. He used it to talk about fighting against racism and social injustice and ecological injustice wherever we see it. And yet, I couldn’t help but feel that he had not gotten it wrong, per se, but that he only glimpsed a portion of what Jesus was talking about. Jesus was talking about the destruction of forms. Remember, everything that Jesus said was a metaphor. Many of my Christian friends would point to the scripture and say, “Aha! You see Jesus was prophesying doom and gloom, and we should be afraid of the future.” Many of them point to Matthew chapter 25 and say, “aha! See? Jesus predicted the end of the world.”
But what they fail to realize is that Jesus was merely pointing out the end of this world of form. Remember this sutra: “all forms, all structures are unstable”. This world of form was never meant to last forever. The only thing that lasts forever is now, this moment. Eternity is now.
Now is the one continuously unfolding moment in time. Now is eternity.
And so when people look at the Gospels and say, “see? Jesus predicted hell and gloom”, they forget that he spoke metaphorically. They forget that he was talking about the destruction of all forms. Did the temple in Jerusalem fall? Yes! Of course! Jesus was simply pointing out, though, that all things will disintegrate in this world of form: bodies, ideas, thoughts, buildings, religions, governments, mountains, kingdoms, languages… EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD OF FORM WILL EVENTUALLY DISSOLVE!
When he predicted more earthquakes and tidal waves, was he being prophetic, as in predicting the future? No! In fact, the Old Testament scriptures and teachings were so anti-prophecy, so anti-predicting the future, that anyone caught trying to predict the future was to be stoned to death. It is unfortunate that in the modern, Christian world, the pervading belief and use of the words “prophet and prophecy” always indicate some dire or even glorious foretelling of future events! Some point to the Old Testament prophets and say, “Look! THEY foretold gloom and destruction if people didn’t get in line with god’s program”! If they were in the foretelling business of predicting the future, then they were in direct conflict with the very rules their god put into place and should have been stoned to death. Rather than thinking of prophets as fortunetellers or future predictors, another way to see them is as people who see a much larger picture of the patterns of human behavior.
So rather than predicting a future of gloom, Jesus was simply commenting on the instability of all forms in this world, even his own religion and culture and language (how many people speak Aramaic now?).
So what is eternal? God, spirit, the one consciousness, the cosmic Christ, our spirit as a part of God? Yes, we are part of God, spirit, the eternal one. If you think that is too pretentious or assuming, see Jesus’ final prayer that we see that we are one, “even as you and I are one”(John 16).
So how do we find God? You can only ever experience God or oneness with God right now in this moment.
For myself, I grew up raised in fear, always dreading the future, the rapture, the tribulation. I never realized that Jesus wasn’t predicting all this horrible stuff! He was simply pointing out that if left to our carnal nature, our human mind-made constructs, we would, of course, devolve into wars and catastrophes! This was not about predicting some dreadful future. It was simply a statement on the egoic mind-made structures of man. So, when I think of that sermon and the destruction of the temple in Jerusalem that Jesus spoke of, I see that he was speaking of physical and temporary forms falling away, even (gasp!!!) Judaism and yes, his own physical body.
One of my dearest friends from church keeps pressuring me to commit to stay at the church forever and ever until I die. And yet, I can’t help but think that maybe the episcopal church is fading away, like all man-made structures. The church of Jesus Christ was never meant to be the end-all be-all of the world of physical form.
Remember, the finger pointing at the moon is NOT the moon. Religion is only useful as long as it points us back to oneness with God, but religion is NOT god. And as long as Christians maintain that Jesus the human is the only answer, they miss everything he said. We have missed the most crucial essence of everything he taught. Love can only ever be experienced now. God is now. Forgiveness only ever happens when I recognize that we are the same, you and I are not separate, different. When I love my neighbor as myself, that’s when I am able to “forgive”, because there is no “other”. “Forgiveness” is just me recognizing and accepting the form of another as it is right now. When Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life”, Christians twisted this, especially modern day, American Christians. We think it points to a belief in Jesus the human as God that saves us. But Jesus was speaking metaphorically again. He was saying, “I am”, that is, in being, in stillness, when we are led by the spirit, when we are in spirit, in quietness and stillness, in presence, in beingness or I am-ness, that we discover the way, the truth, and the life. The Way, the truth, and the life can only ever be found right now in beingness.
I’m beginning to understand why the Buddha said that with desiring comes suffering. When we want or desire life to be other than it is right now, we suffer. We complain, we gripe, we criticize, we judge and we are unhappy. It seems like we can never allow this moment to be as it is. We always seem to want life to be different than it is. We want more. Or we think we have to fix ourselves. We can never seem to be satisfied with life the way it is. But I’m beginning to understand that surrendering to this moment, to life as it’s unfolding right now is where we find peace, joy, love, and God. We spend 99.9% of our lives wanting life to be different, not accepting this moment. We can never seem to be content with what is. It seems we have to judge it and demand that life line up with our desires and our wants and our hopes and our dreams. And when it doesn’t, we say, “life is so unfair!”
Surrender to now is the only way to peace.
Unfortunately, recently at church, I did not live out surrendered to this moment in whatever form that this moment takes. I found myself reacting negatively to two guys at church. I think I need a new strategy to help me remember to be surrendered to this moment. My hope is that I will take a deep breath and count to three before I answer someone else either criticizing or giving me instructions. I am not proud of the way I overreacted to both people. When I recognized that it was my ego and my pain body reacting negatively to their instructions, at least I was able to do that…eventually? But in spite of all my good intentions as I drove to church, I still found myself reacting negatively to people in the band and at church who just rub me the wrong way. This is because my ego was really at work and my pain body was reacting to criticism. And the ego really wanted to be right!
Today is Monday and I’ve spent the whole morning completely taken over by my egoic mind, fighting with other people in my head, making up conversations with people who aren’t there. LOL! I can’t believe how completely I have been controlled by my mind this morning. Even while listening to Eckhart Tolle, my mind has just been out of control with judgments, criticisms, and angry retorts to people who aren’t even there. I laugh about it now, but it took a while for my mind to disengage. But the more I practice observing my own reactions to others, the easier it gets to let go of this desire to defend some false sense of self. That is true humility…not feeling the need to defend some imaginary self or attack some imaginary “enemy” in the form of another.
See Tao Te Ching 16 on emptiness. The Tao describes emptiness as the truly useful way of being. An empty cup or vessel is useful precisely because it empty. If it were already full, where would the usefulness be? Jesus is the perfect example of emptying himself of “self”. It was in this state of emptiness, true humility, or egolessness, that he was truly useful and showed us the path to God.
Wednesday, June 30, 2021
What the Hell is Wrong with Rock Music...
It's already nearly July. I've been slammed with compiling, editing, and revising music lists for both bands. Rock and Blues songs for our band, "On the Rocks", playing hits from the 1960s and 1970s, here in Southern California. I've also been working on sacred music for the church band, though I don't know how much longer it will hang together. I say that, because our little Episcopal church is barely hanging on after COVID. Some are moving away. Others are burnt out from volunteering 50 hours a week to keep this tiny community alive. More elderly folks passed away, and quite a few just don't see the point of returning to church. I can't blame them. I volunteer so much at times, that I think, "God! I just want to escape from all the work I have to do at church! I don't want to go to church either!"
I have to laugh as I contemplate the two disparate styles of band: Rock & Blues v Contemporary Christian music. As a 1980s Evangelical kid, I was dragged to more than one church seminar to discuss all the evils of rock music. LOL!!! I look back now, shake my head and laugh. People just love to hate, don't they? We just love to feel morally superior. We love to sit in judgment on everyone and everything. And Christians are among the absolute worst offenders, I say as one who grew up in that legalistic, judgmental environment. Talk about toxic! As they preached about how rock music was poisoning our minds, they were dumping their toxic sludge of judgment into our souls!
Frankly, I love the episcopal church with its view to social justice, sacred ecology, and spiritual openness, but it seems that it is dying. Literally, dying off. I have buried over 2 dozen dear, elderly friends in the last 5 years. These sweet friends are often very socially conscious, generous, and compassionate. Their capacity to love and accept everyone is truly the best part of humanity in action. And yet, though they all raised their children (now adults with kids and grandkids of their own) in the church, NONE of their progeny attend church at all or the episcopal church, in particular.
So, the church needs to be asking itself: "What did we miss? Are we even relevant to any of the younger generations?" But instead of asking themselves, "What could we do differently?" Or "How could we reach a younger generation who feel no compulsion to join yet another organization and yet who are spiritual?" Or "Why is it that most people under 60 years old would define themselves as 'spiritual, not religious'?" Instead of asking these questions, they seem, in my limited perspective, to be circling the wagons around their standards, rituals, and old traditions. Or maybe they should be asking, "Has our time come to die? Has our purpose been fulfilled? Or are we just propping up yet another bureaucracy for the sake of bureaucracy?"
Sacred music? It means many things to many people. But for the "unchurched" who do not even care to ever hear a choir or an organ, and who are, quite frankly, turned off by such antiquated types of music, good luck getting anyone under 60 or even 80 years old to come to your church! So why do Episcopalians (and certainly not only them, but many denominations) insist on choir and organ as the ONLY acceptable form of worship? Who determined that organ and choir are the only form of sacred music? I used to teach at a private, Christian school where most of the students were from the Church of Christ, which believes that ALL INSTRUMENTS in church, outside of a cappella voices, are demonic. Who told them that load of crap? Again, how little their view of God must be, how limiting a creator. I would not want to serve that God. Ick! What kind of Creator God do they serve? A creator who hates modern music? If their version of God is that petty, no wonder the unchurched want nothing to do with this hateful, narrow minded, exclusive God. The Episcopal church teaches and preaches inclusion, but their God tends to be very exclusive, especially when it comes to "so-called sacred music." I actually read a quote on an Episcopal church website recently (it's 2021 for God's sake!) that
"We have a quite traditional conception of the use of music in church, exemplified by the following words:'Just as swine run to a place where there is mire and bees dwell where there are fragrances and incense, likewise demons gather where there are carnal songs and the grace of the Holy Spirit settles where there are spiritual melodies, sanctifying both mouth and soul.'
- St. John Chrysostom"
WHOA! Talk about a LOAD of judgment in that statement. As they go on to describe what they consider acceptable sacred music, it basically boils down to chants, organ, and choir. Implying that any music which is appealing to a non-churchgoer, that is not hundreds or thousands of years old is automatically demonic. Wow. Perhaps I am focusing too much on the negative part of that ancient quote, I'll admit it. But it was a total turn off for me when I read it.
The older I get, the more expansive my view of God becomes. I enjoy many, many types of music: creating, writing, composing, recording, editing, mixing, engineering, playing, singing, learning new instruments, etc. I don't enjoy only one kind of music. I like nearly every kind of music out there, with the exception of heavy or death metal, but that is just personal preference, and I recognize it as such. The creative process is such a joy! So, I have a really, really hard time imagining that a creator god hates any kind of music, or calls it demonic.
I've seen it done in many places. It can be done. I have seen very traditional Episcopal churches keep the liturgy (the form) and embrace modern praise and worship music. It's beautiful and elegant and raw and authentic and honest worship. Or it can be. I miss that.
Recognizing that each church is a minuscule ecosystem or sub-sub-culture within itself, with its own preferences, norms, traditions, jargon, and music styles, I propose that if churches coming out of COVID lockdowns are finding that no one wants to come back, that maybe they should re-examine their traditions, music styles, and insular "us four and no more" approaches to community.
A friend confided in me recently that she really missed her little Episcopal mission church, which closed after 20-some years. Why did it close? It never grew beyond 40 people attending. The children have grown up, whom they raised together in a very supportive, small, family environment. But again, none of those grown kids see the need to go to church. To be very clear, going to church is NOT the end all. I know it may sound that I am preaching that everyone should go to church. Nope. God is everywhere and in everything. So God can be found everywhere.
What can church add to a person's spiritual growth? A lot and nothing at all! If making people all think like each other or believe like everyone else or love the same things or hate or judge or condemn outsiders is the goal of church, then run! Run far away. They will only poison your heart and your mind. In fact, don't go to church at all if it only insists on conformity. A true spiritual teacher or guide will simply reveal to you what you already know in your spirit. They don't force you to change or believe what they do. They let you come to your own awakening. They can point you in the direction of soul or spirit or god or consciousness, but they do not manipulate or force or coerce or try to get you to be anything than what you already are. A real spiritual person will not even try to make you believe the same as them. They can, however, point you toward ultimate connection to all.
So, going back to the discussion of churches... Am I advocating for large churches only, or implying that only churches which grow are worth while? Is there a place for tiny groups like my friend's old church? Of course. But the reason they never grew, as she explained innocently, was that they liked having a tiny group of people and really did not want anyone else to join them. I know! I visited their church before it closed. Those few families were very close and very happy to keep everyone else out. This is not to say or imply, in any way, that only huge, mega churches are "successful". Not at all. But a church which is not inclusive or welcoming and which is content to only remain "us four and no more" is a church that will eventually die. Then again, all things die. This material world and its temporary forms were never meant to last forever. Maybe some churches should die off. Maybe they have served their purpose, and now that purpose is over.
I also accept that denominations often morph from a spontaneous movement of like-minded, spiritual seekers to a bureaucratic organization, which feels compelled to keep propping itself up. The denomination becomes an end, rather than a means or a tool to help humans find connection to the "deeper I" or the soul. When the denomination only propagates itself, its ideas, its beliefs, its worldview, it becomes insular, isolated, and out of touch with the rest of humanity. Instead of keeping relevant, in whatever form that takes, they tend to try to keep pumping up their organization, especially through the mentality of "we've always done it this way", or "change is bad", or "only OUR way of doing life is acceptable". This leads to what Madeleine L'Engle called "the making muffins of us all." If church is only a place where people get indoctrinated to believe all the "right things" and do all the "right things" or avoid doing all the "bad things", then it is doomed to add to the burden of humanity with its narrow, dualistic worldview. However, community (be it a church, a family, a group of friends, whatever) can point us in the direction of connection with God and the entire cosmos. And when it gently points, but does not forcefully shove us in that direction, then it can be a beautiful thing, no matter what form it takes.
Sunday, June 13, 2021
Perspective from It's A Wonderful Life
I was reminded the other day of the 1942 movie with James Stewart, "It's a Wonderful Life", when a friend was repeating a story I had heard several times before about how she wished her partner would act differently than he does.
As she went on again about how he should know that such and such bothers her, I remembered how we (that is, our egos) often like to complain about others. We want them to read our minds. We want them to do or not do what we think. It’s a subtle voice in our heads trying to control everyone else around us, but not recognizing that our perspective is warped, that the real issue is inside us. Oh, that judgmental little voice just loves to gripe about everyone else. Complaining and blaming is a hard habit to break!
If you are stuck on the same old storyline, endlessly looping about how someone else is unfair or does something you don't like or how they did something that hurt your feelings, you will destroy your own happiness.
-George Bailey: "...It's this old house. I don't know why we all don't have pneumonia. Drafty old barn! (kicks kitchen chair) Might as well be living in a refrigerator... Why do we have to live here in the first place, and stay around this measly, crummy old town..."-Mary Bailey: "George, what's wrong?"-George Bailey: "Wrong? Everything's wrong. You call this a happy family -- why do we have to have all these kids?"
-Clarence: "You see, George, you've really had a wonderful life. Don't you see what a mistake it would be to throw it away?"
Friday, April 30, 2021
30 second meditations...
These tiny tune videos are created to allow time for people to reflect each Sunday morning on what they have heard.
I think I would prefer to say, “Clear your mind. Come into now fully. Allow yourself to just be without thinking. Just breathe.”
I think I would prefer to say, “Take a deep breath. Let it out slowly as you let go of all judgment against life, others, and yourself. Come into this moment and feel the joy of being begin to well up in you as you let go of all attachments. Peace comes when we accept life as it is in this moment.”
More fun with music
Friday, April 23, 2021
Composing and creating
This is a short tune I had fun playing with the other day. I call it Grief Falls Like Rain. Based on a tune I heard in a Chinese or Korean mini-series, it might seem like an oxymoron to talk about having fun while composing songs about grief or laments. But there is a creative joy that wells up, even when the subject matter seems so serious or somber. I wrote a couple of tiny tunes that deal with this subject of grief and sorrow. However, for me, there is a freedom in accepting that this is what the song is about, as I accept my own mortality. This world of physical, temporary forms is losing its grip on me. I feel my own form beginning to slip away, and I am at peace with that. Having said that, I do not know when I will lay down “this mortal shell” as my dad called it, but I am at complete peace in accepting that this temporary form, my physical body, was never meant to last forever. The deeper part of me, or the spirit part of me which is connected to greater whole, to God, to the universe, gladly embraces the spiritual dimension.
As I get older, I find that letting go of who I thought I was, or who I thought I should be, or what I thought I should have accomplished by now, becomes less and less important. There is a sweetness in letting go of attachments to everything in this world. Those attachments to material things are easiest to let go of. Things, stuff, material possessions have a way of owning us, rather than the other way around. “My car”, “my body”, “my money”.... I've never had a problem of letting go of material things. Even now, letting go of relationships is easier for me... “my family”, “my friends”...I should say, letting go of my attempts to control or own or find my identity in those relationships is fading. Even letting go of what I believe...or what I think defines me... “my religion”, “my thoughts”, “my ideas”, those intangible attachments which I often confuse as somehow defining me are sometimes the hardest to let go. But there is freedom in letting go, of no longer trying to define myself by those externals.
"Misery comes when we fret and worry and obsess about what we are not or what we don’t have. But gratitude really does allow me to see the beauty around me now and the enoughness of this moment."
I think, if I am honest, letting go of my dreams of how I thought my life could have turned out are the most illusory, and by far, the most deceptive. After all, none of us have any guarantees of a long, fulfilled future life. The future is an illusion. The only moment that actually exists is right now, continuously unfolding, as Tolle points out over and over. But these attachments to unfulfilled dreams of romance or a home or a successful career or whatever it might be for each of us....those are harder to let go of, until I come back to the present moment.
A new friend recently asked me, "Why aren't you married?" Well, that's a loaded question in itself, fraught with all of its built-in expectations that I cannot live a fulfilled life without another person to validate my existence. But putting that aside, because she was only asking out of curiosity and because she loves me, I tried to find an honest answer. I mean, life isn't that simple, is it? I can't just decide to get married by myself! There needs to be another willing party. LOL! I was engaged once. Once upon a time, when I was young and foolish I thought I was in love. I can see now that what I called love was infatuation and truly selfish in nature. We were both selfish. That is not love. I could lament that I am not in a relationship now, but what is the point of lamenting what does not exist? My life is as it is. I would not change any of my choices. Because no matter where I have landed, I have always found incredible, lovely, kind, shining people. I have friends all over the world, from France, Belgium, Italy, India, Oregon, Oklahoma, Texas, and here in California. So, instead of lamenting something that is not, I rejoice in what I do have: FABULOUS friends!
I could lament that I do not own a home or even furniture anymore...but those are just things. I’m comfortable giving away everything I have. In fact, I'm on a mission to get rid of every nonessential item in my current possession. I could lament that I don’t have a bigger income or a thriving career. I remind myself that "more" is not always more, but can be a trap. And the trap of wanting more than what I have leads to discontentment or what Tolle calls “mostly useless thinking” (see Eckhart Tolle), based in either regretting the past or regretting a future that will never be.
When I wake in the night and feel overwhelmed as physical pain stabs at my left breast, I pause between spasms of pain, and I feel the joy of accepting what is, of feeling the beauty of this broken body, and gratitude for now begins to comfort me. Misery comes when we fret and worry and obsess about what we are not or what we don’t have. Misery focuses on lack and Neverland, that obscure world of the “nevers” of the future.... “I’ll never have ________....I'll never be _________." But gratitude really does allow me to see the beauty around me now and the enoughness of this moment.
Isn’t it miraculous that I have lived and had enough to eat or had a roof over my head my whole life? Isn’t it miraculous that as this physical body begins to shut down, and we are spinning in space at nearly 1,000 mph on this wonder planet filled with life, that I get to let go of attachments to this world? Isn’t it amazing that we can experience joy and peace and love at the deepest levels of who we are? Those qualities of joy, peace and love are not dependent upon circumstances to line up the way I think or demand they should. No, the real peace and joy of being transcend circumstances. So whether my body is breaking down or in health, I can have peace. Whether I am rich or poor, I can find joy in every circumstance. Whether I am accepted or cherished by my family or not, I can know a deeper love for them which transcends all the judgments and which covers all sins with forgiveness.
Friday, April 2, 2021
More thoughts on Revelation and wilderness
Thoughts as I walk in the wilderness and listen to Russell Brand’s Revelation:
What I can learn from 12 step groups:
- Ritual helps us “give up our addictions” more easily. Well. Maybe not “more easily” but at least, perhaps less fractiously.
- Tokens are handed out for milestone moments... 40 days without drugs... maybe 40 days without food for me (with medical supervision, of course).
“We are the unfolding path that we walk upon. Unless we can walk with grace, we are already fallen.” Russell Brand, Revelation.
Other quotes I’m embracing this week:
“The more grateful I am, the more beauty I see.”- Mary Davis
And every common bush afire with God,
But only he who sees takes off his shoes;
The rest sit round and pluck blackberries.”- Elizabeth Barrett Browning
Wow! The more I examine this tiny verse, the more impactful and insightful, even incarnational, it becomes to me. While I always understood the first part as a recognition of the sacred all around us, even in us, I only ever understood the second part about others as dismissive of those who don’t perceive the sacred. Maybe I’m imbuing too much of my own limited perspective on this, but this is a profound insight into the ego-mind or the carnal mind, the unconscious mind-driven self. Those who do not perceive the sacred all around them and in them do only what is natural to the mind divorced from the sacred. They commodify or use the mundane for self-gratification, thus making it profane. As we already know, the sacred and the mundane are one and the same. It is a matter of perception, or in the latter case of the blackberry pickers, it is a misperception, an inability to recognize the sacred in everything. This blindness to the sacred all around is the great disconnect we talk of sustainability circles. It is our disconnection from the sacred that leads us to plunder and pillage the earth for our own selfish gain, to oppress and objectify “others” and thus, to commit acts of violence. This is not a judgment on blackberry pickers, either. There is nothing wrong with satisfying your natural cravings for food, right? Browning’s longer form of this verse from Aurora Leigh points to this dichotomy in the human world of both sacred and profane all around us.
In Native American tribes like the Inuit and Aleuts or the Amazonian tribes like the Achuar, this common, global problem of greed, corrupt systems, pollution and social disparities is perceived as only an external sign of a spiritual problem or a disconnection with spirit. This is why Jesus said that if you fix a man’s eyes, the whole man would see clearly. “But when your eye is unhealthy, your whole body is filled with darkness. And if the light you think you have is actually darkness, how deep that darkness is!”( NLB)
Purple-hued mountains and bushes. Clouds of lavender and deep purple flowers. The luscious scent of Lilac and buttercups wafting from the pale blue and purple butterfly bushes in the wilderness. Everything was alive. The birds sang and chirped and cawed. The ants seemed to frolic as they hurried about their business. The bees seemed to hum with aliveness. Pinks, reds, magentas, purples, lavenders, white blossoms, brilliant yellows, neon oranges, spring greens, bluish sage... every color seemed more vibrant than ever before.
Even lizards- black, brown, gray, or one iridescent aqua and turquoise blue- seemed to dance and leap. A falcon allowed me to approach it. I heard a bird in the preserve calling. It reminded me of the sweet call of the red-winged black bird back home every spring.
Tiny little green finches gather up the dandelion seeds. My mother was right. Why keep a lawn without dandelions? What will the beautiful, little finches eat when they migrate through this land if everyone poisons the dandelions? I saw a dead hummingbird, its iridescent green feathers dulling. I wondered had it died of natural causes? Had the fierce winds yesterday knocked it down and killed it? I stopped for a moment to thank the bird for its beauty and its life. I wondered if it had a grieving partner somewhere? I thanked the tiny bird for its participation in this physical form, for its contribution to the dance of life.
I remembered the sweet, gentle mourning dove yesterday. As I approached along the sidewalk, I saw it lying perfectly still in the middle of the sidewalk. I drew closer. It did not move. I drew closer still, not wanting to frighten it, but wondering if it had been injured? Then, it flew away! And there on the sidewalk where it had lain was a tiny, damp feathered baby dove. The winds had blown it from the nest and the mother was sitting on her baby, warming it, cuddling it, protecting it beneath her outspread wings.
I thought of all the lovely redbud trees and the rocks, many pebbles which seem to find their way into the tread of my shoes... I thought about what it means to ‘be Zen’. Zen is to be alive to this moment, to all of life as it is, to be like a tree. Trees do not toil and strain. They do not complain or make up useless stories about either how great they are or how despicable or how victimized they are. They simply are.
Does that mean that trees do not have hardships? Of course not. Just look at the tree in my yard, its bark wounded and scarred from the childish trauma inflicted by my young nephew. Those wounds now allow the infestation of bacteria and insects. Or look at the twisted, bent-over trunks along my usual path up to the mountains behind my home. The Santa Ana winds are a destructive force to be reckoned with. Many trees are uprooted each year or branches broken. To be Zen is to be at peace with what is, to be present now, doing whatever you do now because this is just what you do. To be Zen is to be one with all of life. To be fully present. This is the sacred dance, the awareness of the underlying life in all, the connection of community, the perception of beauty, of joy, of is-ness.