Welcome to Happy Snowflake Dance!

It's my experiment in joyful, marrow-sucking living.
Inspired by George Santayana's poem,
There May Be Chaos Still Around the World

" They threat in vain; the whirlwind cannot awe
A happy snow-flake dancing in the flaw. "


My Mission: a daily journey into Openness.

I hope you'll come along!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Only 31 days left!


Just arrived from Santhia in Vercelli today. Will have to write more later to recapture the last few weeks. But the climb across the Alps was hard, but delicious! The weather was perfect and I was accompanied by 4 beautiful Belgian men; Geert, Laurent, Karl, and little Jonathon (16 years old). I lost my way as I crossed the alps and had to backtrack (a 3 hour detour- ay ay ay). After that, Geert and the others made sure I didn't get lost again.

Sam is doing well, but the descent was murder. We walked 30km from the top at Grand Saint Bernard to Aosta, Italy in one day. Then Geert, Sam, and I returned to Bourg Saint Pierre by bus to retrieve Geert's car. We joined the other guys around Nus and Chatillon, Italy.

I've been incredibly blessed to meet with so many wonderful people along the way. God is good! Just as I was feeling sad about leaving behind my four gorgeous Belgian men, I ran into Marie-Josephine (last name?) and Michel Hoeken, 2 other pilgrims which I met in Saint Maurice at the Abby with Laurent and Jonathon. I had been on the road for a month and had not met any other pilgrims. My first via francigena pilgrim friends!!!! Lovely.

So happy to see them again in Santhia where I thought I would have to travel alone for the rest of the route. Even better news is that Michel and M-J have called ahead for the next week or so and have made reservations at abbeys and hostelleries where we can stay (pilgrims just pay a suggested donation). So I have a place to stay for the next 10 days or so until I reach Campriano in Tuscany, where I will stay at Ranuccio Neri's vineyard for a few days.

I will have to take the train again to keep on track to get to Rome before September 14th. I need a day to find a new dog kennel for the airplane. All is well. God continues to provide in so many wonderful ways. Today, just as it began to rain, a woman stopped and insisted that Marie-Josephine and Sam and I get in her car. She took us on to Vercelli, then drove us to the convento where we are staying tonight. Father Roberto is sooo kind and gentle-hearted. Again, even though they do not accept dogs, he said they had room enough for me and Sam. Sweet! M-J even prayed that the priest would say, 'yes' and he did. So we are warm and dry for the moment.

My heart is full. I spend most of the days walking and singing and praying for you all. You are in my thoughts everyday. I wish I could be there with you now to hug you and let you know that you are loved and appreciated. Peace and love and joy be yours in overflowing abundance today,


Friday, July 23, 2010

On the road to Rome...by way of Vesouls, France

It's hard to believe that it is July 23rd. Happy birthday to my nephew, Gabriel today! I've traveled way more quickly than I had anticipated. I was not scheduled to reach Dampierre-sur-Salon until August 3rd or so. I just realized that the blog I posted on July 11 did not upload, so I'll have to repost as much as I can in the time I have. 

 After walking from Guînes to Licques, Francine Guoffroy found me on the side of the road. She took me home, fed me dinner, and insisted that I stay at her lovely home for the night. Then, the next day, she took me on a tour of the region and to lunch, then drove me on to the Abbey of Notre-Dame de Wisques. 

 At Wisques, I met Soeur Lucy, the only nun who is allowed to leave the walls of the convent. She is the liaison for the convent where the other nuns are cloistered. I'll admit that I had a hard time understanding how these nuns could live the cloistered life until later. The sisters at Clairvaux-sur-Aube explained that the cloistered nuns had a different calling, a call to intercede for the world in prayer. Seven times a day, the sisters at Notre-Dame intercede in prayer. They live in a small community within the walls, only 26 nuns in all. The prayers take the form of Gregorian chants and ancient prayers and songs. It's really quite lovely. But they are separated from the world. There is always a wall or a fence or a grill between them and the rest of the world, in order that they might consecrate themselves to prayer. It's a different world.

 At Wisques, I met Dominique and Soeur Marie-Thérèse(a nun who teaches epistemology and history of scripture). Sister Marie-Thérèse was holding a conference for the cloistered nuns at Notre-Dame. They offered to take me to Laon and to Reims where Sister M-T was incredibly knowledgeable about the history, the art, and the architecture of basilicas, cathedrals, and churches!!! Amazing! I stayed with Dominique's family one night in a village called Nesles. Dominique's husband, Stéphane LOVED Sam, since Sam reminded him of a cocker spaniel he had seen in his favorite childhood stories. 

 The next day, Dominique's daughter Marie and her husband drove me back to Reims where they were performing with a small theatrical troupe. I continued on my way, along the canal from Reims to Sillery (where I met a group of champagne vineyard workers who were playing petanque and who invited me to dinner with champagne to drink, of course) and on to the village of Beaumont-sur-Vesle. 

 At Beaumont-s-V, it was getting quite late and I had not found a place to stay when I ran into an older Belgian couple in an RV, a 'camping-car' as they call it here. They were concerned for my safety, and since the local hotel would not accept dogs, the couple insisted that I camp next to them in the town park. 

 On Sunday, July 11, Jean-Claude and Denise Michel dropped by the park. Jean-Claude was on his way to the canal to walk his dogs when he saw Sam, fell in love (with my dog) and made me promise that I would not leave until he had returned with his wife, who loved cocker spaniels as well. They had a black cocker spaniel and a griffhound(?). Of course, being so very French and absolutely hospitable (not to mention in love with cocker spaniels), Jean-Claude and Denise invited me to lunch and offered to take me on to my next destination. I am now beginning to realize that lunch with French people is not a simple, one-hour affair. It is a day-long event. J-C let me use his computer to blog (which subsequently did not post) while Denise ran to the store to pick up a few items for the barbeque and meat for the dogs! no kidding! She actually bought fresh meat to fry up for the dogs, especially Sammy. They even gave me a package of dogfood for him. Talk about spoiled! Ils ont gâté mon chien, les français! (These French people have absolutely spoiled my dog!!!) 

 After lunch and a stroll along the canal, J-C and Denise took me on to Sommesous, way off the track and further south of Chalons-en-Champagne. It was literally a truck stop in the middle of nowhere, but J-C, being a retired policeman thought it a better place to leave me to fend for myself than in C-e-C. Sweet! really, they thought they were doing me a favor. They thought that perhaps I could meet a family in an RV and catch a ride.  Jean-Michel had informed me that a young woman had been murdered recently in the area and that he could not rest easy if he did not take me further south.  The killer had not been apprehended at that point.  He said Chalons-en-Champagne was too dangerous.

 I didn't have the heart to tell them that I was way off course and that I was trying to retrace the footsteps of Segeric the Serious, since they were trying to help. So they bought me a coke, waited for a bit, and since it was after 5pm, I told them I'd figure it out and sent them on their way home. 

 After Jean-Claude Michel and his wife Denise dropped me off in Sommesous, I trekked south through the blazing temps to reach Mailly-le-Camp at dusk. Poor Sam. We had to stop every few hundred meters or so, to allow him to rest and recuperate from the heat. It was 97° F in the shade that day. We try to stay in the shade as much as possible, but there are stretches which seem interminable under the broiling sun. 

 At Mailly-le-Camp, I finally found a park just before dark (nearly 11:00pm) where I could set up my tent for the night. The hotels were closed in this little military training ground town. On Monday, just as I was decamping, a horrific storm set in. Gaelle, a young woman who had invited me over to watch the World Cup the night before (and had offered to let me camp in their backyard), invited me in to weather the storm. 

 We talked for a while. She made me a cup of coffee, and I took a short nap sitting up on the couch while the storm raged. After the storm dissipated a bit, Sam and I got back on our way. I had to continue heading South and East to get back to the via francigena. 

 Just as I entered the little farming village of Trouane, it began to sprinkle. Just at that moment, Mme Jeanne-Marie Thomassin picked us up and offered to make me lunch! Sweet! Now, the French know how to enjoy lunch. Most people still have 1 1/2 - 2 hours to eat lunch (usually the largest meal of the day). And being a 'practical woman with her feet on the ground' as Jeanne-Marie said, she asked me if I needed a shower. I said "no", but she offered me a towel and a bar of soap, and pointed me in the direction of their barn (where they had a shower for the farmhands) and told me to relax while she made lunch for her husband and his helper. 

 It was fantastic, of course. Salad, baked chicken with zucchini and tomatoes and potatoes in a béchemelle sauce, bread and cheese, and fresh raspberries with crème chantilly (whipped cream), and a white wine, too. After lunch, since it was pouring down rain, Jeanne-Marie decided to take me all the way to Brienne-le-Château. When I arrived at the Office de Tourisme, a young gal greeted me. When I explained that I was a pilgrim and had a dog, she gave me the key (though dogs are not allowed) to the 'local de nuit', a small, rustic apartment behind the bakery which had 5 beds, a small W/C and a tiny shower. 

 Since no one else was expected, she gave me the key. It was FREE for pilgrims. They also use it from time to time for homeless folks. It's owned by the Mairie (mayor's office) and was quite clean. I found an entry in the guest book from Anne, a pilgrim whose blog I read before beginning my own journey. Anne made the trip completely on foot, by herself, in 2008. She's Irish. And when I saw her journal entry in the guestbook, it was like meeting an old friend along the long, empty road. 

 After the rains subsided, I took a stroll through the village towards the old château, which had been converted some years ago into a psychiatric hospital. This was Napolean Bonaparte's stomping grounds. He had gone to military school here. During the Revolution, the château was seized by the people, its owner put to death, and so on. But when Napolean came into power (after defending the region quite brilliantly against the Italian invasion), he invested money in the region and established a new military school in the town. He is definitely the town hero in Brienne-le-Château! 

 The next day, I dropped off the key, dashed into the bakery (where the owner personally came out to give Sammy a treat), and continued along the via francigena toward Bar-sur-Aube. We trekked from village to village, stopping at churches and cemetaries along the way for fresh water. Not far from Bar-sur-Aube, Eric, a local worker offered to take us on to Bar-sur-Aube since it was turning into another blazing hot day. I accepted. 

At Bar-sur-Aube, I waited at the presbytery, but they had no room in the inn- ha ha. So a deacon from the church showed up and took me on to my next destination, the Abbaye of Clairvaux-sur-Aube, where Saint Bernard built the largest Cistercian abbey in the world. At Clairvaux-sur-Aube, the church was destroyed during the Revolution, the abbey seized by the people, the monks put to death, and eventually (during the Napoleanic years) turned into a prison. It now remains a maximum security prison. The 'abbey' consists of 2 houses across the street from the prison walls, which are run by 3 eldery nuns. 

 Oh, I wish you could meet these precious saints! Of course, there are rules. No dogs allowed. The deacon dropped me off and took off immediately. Great! They don't take dogs. Where was I going to stay? I asked if I could set up my tent in the yard. The nun I call 'Sister Harbaugh' was quite firm. There are rules. And then Sister Anne-Christine showed up. All smiles. The woman almost never stops smiling. Filled with grace, she offered me a drink and a meal with a very sweet 'why don't you sit down and we'll figure this out in a moment'. The next thing I know, they were offering me a house to stay in. Again, since no one else was expected (usually they house the families of prisoners -- very cheap--- only 8 euros per adult and 2 euros per child), they made an exception to the rules for me. 

 And guess who was on the phone asking a reporter to come by and bring his cocker spaniel named 'Max'! Yep! Sister Harbaugh! She LOVES cocker spaniels! As usual, Sam was quite spoiled as the 3 elderly nuns pampered him. I have to say that I felt so much love from these nuns, it was overwhelming. I was sad to leave them the next morning. However, I had the rare opportunity to join them in morning prayers in the 'oratoire', a small prayer room, and then continued on my way, so happy to see how they demonstrate the love of Christ for every family member who comes to visit a prisoner there. They just gushed love and kindness and joy. The average age among the three was 75 years old. 

 From Clairvaux-sur-Aube, I continued toward Châteauvillain along a gravel road (following the guidance of Sister Harbaugh). It was a lovely morning. Along the road, I met an Italian by the name of Richard who was biking from Bar-sur-Aube to Langres. He stopped me for a photo. He had heard of the crazy American girl and her dog who were trekking to Rome!!! Incredible!

 By late afternoon, between Cirfontaine-en-Azois (where we rested for sometime in the shade watching the town prepare for the July 14th celebrations) and Châteauvillain, it began to blow. The winds were insane! I had a difficult time staying on my feet and Sam was being blown across the road, luckily still attached to me by leash. 

And then the rains started. Oh la la! Quel orage! What a storm! I had no choice but to continue on. On a positive note, the temps dropped by more than 20 degrees! Woo hoo! It was cool out, so we didn't mind the rain so much...until it really began a deluge. 

 By the time I reached Châteauvillain, we were drenched. We had trudged for over 3 hours in blinding, heavy rains and unbelievable winds.  I just accepted it.  It was a relief from the heat, so who was I to complain?  I considered putting Sammy’s little rain gear on, but it would be pointless.  I considered putting my own rain gear on, but I was already drenched, so we walked on in the rain, hour after hour.  It was what it was.  I was content.  Luckily, I had had the presence of mind to call ahead to the Syndicat d'Initiative to ask about a room. It took hours to arrive, but we got there around 7 pm, after closing time, and the local girl had stayed just make sure I had a key to the room they kept for visitors. It was warm and dry. With only a toilet and sink, it was a site for sore eyes. Though the beds were horrific roll-away beds, the place was clean with a few food items on hand, and it was FREE! We crashed immediately. 

 I was too tired to get up and stroll through the walled city until the next morning, which was gorgeous. Châteauvillain is fantastic, with its moat and its ancient walls and narrow, winding streets. I took the time to run a few errands in the morning. Of course, by then, the locals had heard of my arrival; the crazy American girl with her dog who arrived in a torrential downpour the night before. Most of the treck ran along an old logging road through the Fôret de Châteauvillain. A pleasant walk in the morning, since the rains had cooled things a bit, the day turned into another scorcher as Sam and I dodged from shadow to shadow along the 'route fôrestière'. 

 Before I could reach Arc-en-Barrois, Sam had had enough. So I found a picnic shelter, not far from the main road, only 6-8 km from Arc-e-B, but too far for us. I pitched the tent under the shelter, figuring that if it rained, we would be even more protected. It was dry and relatively clean, no bugs. And since the cement floor was flat, I figured I could sleep better anyway. It was a long night in the wild. And I'll admit that I was a teeny bit frightened to be so far from civilization and to be so isolated. But I was exhausted and had no choice. It was camping sausage, wild or primitive camping.  We had food and water and even the picnic shelter, so we made the best of it.

 On July 16, I arrived just outside of Arc-en-Barrois, another charming village, when 2 French teachers in the US (one grew up just outside of STL, MO) offered me a ride to the gite at the Domaine du Val Bruant, which means 'the noisy valley'. They refused to speak to me in English, darn it! And so, I dropped my pack at the Domaine, went back to town 3km away, and bought some yogurt from a mobile cart, a crèmerie, took a nap on the town lawn outside the church, and eventually tried to make my way back to the Domaine. 

 I swear those 3 km were the longest 3 km of my life!!! It was so hot and broiling under the summer sun, that Sam needed to stop every few feet to rest in the shade. He dragged me off to the woods just before reaching the Domaine. He couldn't take the heat anymore and the road was in full sun for the last 1/2 mile. I call it the Domaine du val BRULANT, which means the BURNING or Broiling valley. I was thrilled when M. Jeanson said he could put me up for 2 nights! it was lovely and peaceful there. 

 M. Jeanson feeds the deer every evening, calls them in like cattle to feed them corn. There are spotted deer called 'daims' and then there are the larger ones called 'cerfs' or just deer. It was pretty impressive. There was an old chapel on the hilltop behind the large farmhouse. 

 And the next day, M. Jeanson took me and the dogs and his 16 month old grandson to the local spring across the way. There's a story there which is very similar to that of the movie, Manon de la Source. I wandered through the woods and rested. 

 On Sunday, July 18th, we had a pleasant start. The mornings are often cool and calm. So we headed as far as we could toward Langres, our next étape (or stage). We walked more than 20km, when a man from Langres stopped in the heat of the day to offer us a ride. Since it was so hot, again, I accepted. Daniel gave us a short tour of Langres, an impressive, medieval fortress town which really hit its stride in the early 1500s as a model military city. 

 With its ancient Roman archways and walls, and layers of history, Langres is a beautiful outpost which towers above the plains. With natural defensive features, Langres has outlasted and preserved its culture and art and history. We camped within the city walls at the terrain de camping, located next to the impressive Tour de Navarre. The military tower which dates back to the early 1500s, has walls which are 21 feet thick! A second tower was constructed with a ramp so they could move their cannons into position, should the city be attacked. We walked the ramparts the next morning, 3 km around the city center.

 Xavier, who runs the campground, is fluent in many languages. My second night, a group of Hollanders on motorcycles camped next to me. They were fun and outgoing and spoke English, of course. 

 On Tuesday, July 20, Sam and I headed out early trying to evade the heat as much as possible. We were headed to Champlitte. It was not bad in the morning, but by afternoon, again, the sun was unbearable. After walking nearly 15-18 km, a Mme Danielle Pinot from a tiny village along the way, found us, offered us a ride to the next town, set us down along the busy D67 road, and went on her way. 

 We rested for at least an hour in the shade of a tree along a long stretch of sunny highway. Eventually, I convinced Sam to move along, a little bit at a time. But when it was just too hot and Sam refused to move any further, I got out the scissors and began clipping his fur. Still 98° in the shade, it was oppressive, but we had to continue on. Then a few kilometers outside of Champlitte, a local girl stopped to pick us up and take us on to the campground there. I was grateful. The campground was sparse, but clean with showers, toilets, sinks for dishes, sinks for laundry, a small snack bar, a tiny baby pool for kiddos, and flat ground to sleep on. 

 I met a truck driver from the island of Réunion (off the coast of Africa), who invited me to join him and his friends for a drink. I only drink water on most days. And though it was nice of them to offer to buy me a drink, after sweating out liters of water each day, all I want is water, lots of water! The next morning, I walked to the village of Champlitte, another dazzlingly beautiful village with its castle and winding streets and amazing vistas and local bakeries and shops. From Champlitte, we continued on through the winding country roads, passed miles and miles of farm country. 

 We followed our own yellow brick road, which turned out to be wheat kernels strewn along the side of the road to form a thick yellow stripe. Seems they have a bumper crop of wheat this year. By 3:00pm, it was blistering, but then the clouds rolled in. Ahhhhh. We passed village after village until we found Dampierre-sur-Salon. By the time I reached D-s-S, I was exhausted, ready to cry from sheer exhaustion, and fearful that I would not find a place to stay. We went to the hotel mentioned in the guidebook, but it was closed, permanently. 

 Then a local pointed me toward M. Monney's house, a chambres d'hôtes. Of course, I could stay there! yes, even with my dog! no problem. I almost cried for joy. M. Monney showed me to the patio where it was still drizzling, but which had a lovely umbrella, gave me carafe of orange juice, and introduced me to a local gal who was renting a room there. 

 Sylvie and I became friends while M. Monney and his wife readied my room. I decided to stay for 2 nights so my feet could recuperate, as well as Sam. It was a lovely family home which M. Monney said was built in the 1700s. My room was perfectly clean and came with a spotless shower and toilet and sink. Nice. We settled in nicely. 

 The next day, Thursday, I read a book, Ce que je crois by a guy named Gilbert Ceslons or something. It was exactly what I wish I could write concerning the condition of the earth and humanity. Anyhoo, we passed a very quiet day. 

 I met Dider, a biologist who was also renting a room at the gite, who invited me and Sylvie to dinner at Chez Berthe that night. Chez Berthe is famous in the region for its perfectly seasoned and crafted dinners and its hospitality. And it lived up to its reputation! A salad with warm goat cheese, followed by bison cutletts with mushrooms and creamed veggies, a plate of fries, the cheese cart with its local specialty cheese, a fondue cheese, and a chocolate mousse for dessert. Aye aye aye. Topped off with a nice rosé wine. 

 On Friday, Sylvie and I drove to her dad's house in the country where we are staying until this evening. I can't believe how open and generous these people are. Her dad made us lunch yesterday, the fried potatoes and pork chops, and again today. He knows how to cook. We hung out last night with her sister, Natacha, and her mom who just had knee surgery. Lovely, the family. So sweet, so generous. I'm stilling typing away at her brother's computer. But Sylvie is off to gather lavender with her buddy this week, so she'll drop me off again at Beaujeu, not far from Dampierre-sur-Salon, where I'll await the arrival of my guide books. Then, next week, I'll hit the trail again toward Rome. Feeling happy, satisfied, and most of all grateful!!!! Until next time, Gigi

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Mini-meltdown

Well, Janine was right. I did have a hard day yesterday. I think it was just the combination of a lack of good sleep for over a week (except when I stayed at Francine's house for one night), plus the heat, and dehydration kicking in. I was exhausted.

 Sister Maria-Therese and Dominique were wonderful! They took me all over from Wisques to Laon to Reims. I suddenly felt emotional. I actually teared up at dinner, much to the concern of Dominique's husband, Stephane. anyhooo.... like everything in this life, the moment passed and I enjoyed the conversation at dinner. 

 Sister Maria-Therese was an amazing guide. She studied the history of the church, and has served at several of the abbeys along the way. She understood the architecture and design of each place. And as intimidating as an old nun can be, she was also wonderfully generous. She bought several postcards for me to share along the way. 

 So, I stayed last night in a tiny village called Nesles, about 10-20 miles or so from Reims. It's very hard to judge distances now. We toured the cathedral of Laon in the afternoon, then went to Reims to see the pilgrims cathedral (constructed around 1100-1300). Reims is the place where St. Remy baptized Clovis, the first frankish king. It is also the place where the kings of France are coronated and consecrated. 

 Joan of Arc helped ensure that Charles VII was crowned King of France at this very spot. 

After Sammy and I got back on the trail, we stopped by a champagne vineyard in the heart of Champagne-Ardennes in the late afternoon. This is a region which was practically obliterated during the war of 1914, as they call it here. Many of the cathedrals are still under renovation after World Wars I and II. 

 We passed by many cemeteries with thousands of crosses of soldiers who died during the First World War. Though in this part of France, they consider that they have fought 3 major wars here. The war of 1914, the war of 1917, and the war of 1939 against the Germans. But, it's time to run. 

 Will post photos later. Can't seem to be able to find my photos on this computer right now. Next? I think I'm off to Reims to pick up the trail there. I will try to walk early in the mornings to avoid the heat of the day. It's a bit much for Sam to walk in the afternoon. Temps are in the 80s during the day. Not bad. But very hot in the sun. I'm feeling very grateful for the help of strangers!!!! 

 It's only been a week, but I've been incredibly blessed to meet such lovely people who have opened their homes and hearts to me. Thanks be to God!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

From the road...

It has been a fabulous week. I arrived in Paris on Sunday morning, spent 4 hours trying to figure out how to get Sam's kennel to Rome. Then, another 4 hours at the train station before heading to Calais, dragging Sam's kennel behind me. We were very popular everywhere we went.

Of course, people laughed to see Sam walking along beside me while I dragged his kennel along. It was quite a picture. Finally, we arrived in Calais. ( Yes, Dana, you were right about the trains. Though we took the TGV to Lille -that's the fast train- we took the SNCF from Lille to Calais...very slow, hot, and crowded.) Who would have thought that Sunday would be market day at the port city?

 So, after getting my bearings, we headed to our hotel, dodging through a massive crowd. Imaginez-vous! I had my gianormous back pack, Sam had his backpack, and of course, there was the kennel! Ohhh la la! Trying to navigate through the crowd was more difficult than trying to navigate a French keyboard... the letters and numbers are all different, by the way.

The Hotel Belazur was dodgy, but relatively clean-ish. The staff tried to help me post Sam's kennel to Rome. But in the end, I could not find a box large enough to ship the kennel in. And the post office would not accept it without a box. Et alors? In the end, I donated it to a veterinary clinic. They were happy to receive a large kennel. 

In the evening I took Sam for a stroll through a park where I could hear African drums beating. As I passed by a group of young people dancing and singing, they saw me and invited us to hang out. I declined at first because I was exhausted. As I passed them a second time, I thought 'I should get some video of this music.' uh-oh! They saw me with my camera and came at me. They were shouting (not angrily, but forcefully) 'no, no, no! You cannot take our photo! First, you must know us! You must come inside the circle!' 

So I joined them. They were from all over: Eritrea, Ethiopia, Sudan, Ireland, England, Holland, France, Italy... We talked for bit. They told me their stories of living on the streets in Calais. And now they were living in the park, like gypsies. After a little while, I excused myself, careful (in spite of their friendly overtures) to not allow them to know where I was staying. ha ha ha. 

I think some of them were hoping that I would let them stay in my room; a room which was barely large enough to hold my backpack! And so, after sorting my things again (getting rid of every unnecessary article of clothing or item possible), donating my clothes to a local church which aids immigrants, and disposing of Sam's kennel, I was finally on my way. 

We followed a track of sorts along the canals and through the marshes for about 14 kilometers. This was easy. We had gorgeous weather, a pleasant day, and locals along the way who were curious enough to stop us and ask what I was doing. I wish I had taken a photo of the boys who were fishing along the canals. So cute! They asked me questions and wished me 'bon courage!' 

This is the part of the trip which I call 'the game'. In this game, one tries to find the trail which is buried beneath weeds which are taller than me. I'm attaching a photo above. Can you find the trail? It's there. Really. 

On arriving in Guines (I skipped the trek to Wissant along the coast because this way was more direct), I found a camp site. Camping in France is huge! And because I was a pilgrim and had my own tent, it was FREE! Yay! Almost as soon as I arrived, a gorgeous Dutch couple with two young twin girls adopted me. Janine and Rolfe Post hold their PhDs in microbiology and organic chemistry. I couldn't have landed in better company! They invited me to sit at their table, join them for a cuppa coffee, and later a glass of wine. 

They were fluent in English, of course. So we talked late into the night. It was still twilight at 10:30pm. I will admit that I was miserably cold, but was sooo grateful for the loan of Nicolle's flannel sleeping bag!!! I barely slept at all. But I was still in good spirits. 

In the morning, the Post family invited me to breakfast with them. And they offered to mail my books back to the US. After only one day of hiking, I knew that I had to lighten my load even more. So, back went the Canterbury Tales and my Bible. To be honest, I thought that I would be alone at nights, but after only one day, I realized that I would be too tired to read at night! The kindness of strangers just blows me away everytime. And so, Janine and Rolfe walked me to the entrance of the campsite. Oh, I didn't even mention the clean showers and bathrooms and washing facilities, the bistro, restaurant, the cabins, the caravans, the permanent tents or RVs which one can rent.... It was truly impressive and so welcome after a long day of walking. Oh, and the park attendant gave me a list of places to stay along the way. Best of all, they are FREE or a donation. Sweet!!!! Anyhoo, we got under way around 11:00am. 

 I'm one day ahead of schedule since I bypassed Wissant. So, I began walking from Guînes to Licques...another 19 kilometers. It was warm in the sun, cool in the shade. But I quickly lost my way. My guide book did not have street numbers or names...not one! Luckily, I had a terrible map from the park attendant which had a few streets or roads which were marked. So, after stopping to ask for some water from an old woman, we were back on track. I should tell you about the old woman. It was very hot by now, Sam had already refused to continue on. So I had let him take a nap, while I took his backpack, changed my socks, and took the time to try to prevent my blisters from forming, and ate a protein bar. 

Sam did not want to drink. It was disconcerting. So, after wandering a bit down a road, I stopped when I saw an elderly woman hanging out her laundry. I asked if she an outdoor spigot where I could get some water to refill our water bottles. She went inside to get me some fresh water and returned with her husband. Again, I'm kicking myself for NOT taking their photo!!!!! Darn it! They were so cute and so chatty.  The husband brought a bowl for Sam to drink some cool, fresh water, which he DID drink. Then they ran inside to get a treat for Sam. They were quite heart-broken since their dog of 18 years had died a few months before. They invited me in, but it was getting late and I had only gone about half-way to my destination. M. Mentez had retired from the SNCF railroad years before. He was 89 years old. His wife was only 86! They were sooooooo kind and sweet. So they pointed me in the right direction, and I continued on my way. I would have loved to have stayed longer with them. They were sooo sweet. It just brings tears to my eyes even as I type now. 

The road to Licques ( highway D 215) is a long uphill climb. Did I mention that it was long? and uphill? Oh la la! Sam refused to continue on several times. It WAS hot and sunny. But the view from the top was pretty amazing. I could see the port of Calais in the distance. As we topped the hill and began our descent, Sam began to perk up. It was easier, the sun was less intense, and the fields of wheat were perfectly golden. Like any road in France, it was lined with gianormous ginko trees. Just lovely. 

Just before reaching Licques (sounds like LEEK), a woman stopped to ask me where I was going. When I said 'Licques', she offered me a ride. Since I still wasn't sure how much further it was, I accepted. I had just prayed for a ride. I had just been thinking how Segeric the Serious probably would have accepted rides in a cart or whatever he could on his way to Rome. Et voilà! Here comes Francine. She told me that she had seen me walking along the road from Guînes earlier that morning and saw that I was still walking, so she had had a brief conversation with herself, something like: 'Why do we always watch others struggle? huh; Well, today, I'll do something about it! Rather than just see that pilgrim walking along, I'll see if she wants a ride.' 

More than that, she not only offered me a ride, she invited me to her house to get some water and a bite to eat. After that, she offered to take me on to my destination, a campground which was free for pilgrims along the via francigena. I also had a name of a family further south in the town of Alquines, thanks to the park attendant at Bien-Assise campground in Guînes, where I could stay for a donation. So, Francine went with me to the camp site, which was really just a little way from her house. She talked with the park directeur. He said I could stay there for free and could put my tent wherever I liked. But then Francine amazed me even more, she invited me to stay at her house!!!!!! Wow! 

It's a beautiful home with a garden, a workshop, a horsestall, cats, a Bernese dog (HUGE), flowers, fruit trees, etc. It is so beautiful here. She made dinner. I tried pastis for the first time. Pastis is a licorice flavored (anise) liqueur. Her grandparents built this house. Francine is 61 years old. She helps immigrants who land in Calais and volunteers her time with local kiddos who have problems reading. We keep laughing because I asked her what she does with her free time. HA! The woman does everything! She fixes her car, tends the garden, entertains friends and her children (when they come to visit), volunteers in the community, etc. She stays very busy! So we watched a bit of the World Cup during dinner, of course. One cannot be in France and NOT watch the World Cup! It simply is not done. Even older women are quite fanatical about the sport. We talked late into the night. And now, she is letting me use her laptop to blog while she putts around the house taking care of her chickens and ducks and geese and animals. 

Later, she will take me on a tour of the village which was established by Italian monks from Pontremoli (another village on my route). So much more to tell, but the day is burning. After our tour of the village, Francine will take me on to the village of Wisques. I need the rest. I did not realize that my feet were in such bad shape until last night. Darn these super long middle toes. I have blisters on both my middle toes and on both of my heels. So, in reality I'm still a day or so ahead of schedule. Anyhoo, time to go. Au revoir!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

The road less traveled...

As I'm thinking about my long pilgrimage ahead, I can't help but think of Robert Frost's poem, "The Road Not Taken". Many people have already taken a sacred journey along the most famous pilgrimage route of all, the via de Santiago del Compstela, which treks from Rome, across southern France, through the Pyrenees, and ever on to the Atlantic coast of Spain. 

For over 1100 years, Santiago has hosted up to 2 million pilgrims a year. Some have crawled it on their knees. But I am taking the less traveled road...the via francigena.

Each year, only a few dozen pilgrims make this equally arduous trek in modern times. And so my thoughts keep returning to Robert Frost and his roads and birch branches as I embark on a 75 day, 1106 mile trek from Calais, France to Rome, Italy. I'll be exploring what sacred place, sacred space means. I'll be contemplating silence... a lot of silence! But I hope that as a result of this journey, I will hear much more in the silence than I have ever heard before. 
 I leave you with Frost's thoughts: Robert Frost (1874–1963). Mountain Interval. 1920. 
 The Road Not Taken 
 Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, 
 And sorry I could not travel both 
 And be one traveler, long I stood 
 And looked down one as far as I could 
 To where it bent in the undergrowth; 
 Then took the other, as just as fair, 
 And having perhaps the better claim, 
 Because it was grassy and wanted wear; 
 Though as for that the passing there 
 Had worn them really about the same, 
 And both that morning equally lay 
 In leaves no step had trodden black. 
 Oh, I kept the first for another day! 
 Yet knowing how way leads on to way, 
 I doubted if I should ever come back. 
 I shall be telling this with a sigh 
 Somewhere ages and ages hence: 
 Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— 
 I took the one less traveled by, 
 And that has made all the difference. 

 Peace to you in your own journey this summer. May you find the sacred in everyday life spent with friends and family and co-workers. Here's hoping that the veil which hides the sacred is pulled aside once in a while so that we get a glimpse of something even more glorious and fulfilling which carries us through our interactions with others, which fills us with more grace, more compassion, more hope, more joy, more peace, more laughter, more abundance, and more life!

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Rainbows and Midsummer and Dreams


Well, I asked for sunshine and it came out in the most glorious rainbow just moments ago! I'm looking at a triple rainbow which is dipping down into the city below. It is beyond magnificent! You can't tell by the photo, but in reality, the rainbow looked gianormously HUGE and wide.

My housemate is off to Honduras tonight with a team of about 25 folks from our church, Trinity Episcopal in Portland's NW neighborhood. She'll be back on July 1st.

So much to do between now and July 2nd when I take off. Eeek! Just realized after reading and re-reading travel info that I DO have to re-microchip Sam. In order to enter France, he has to have a 15 digit microchip. The one he already has is only 10 digits and does not meet international, European ISO standards.

I hiked back up the hill from church today in the rain. It was lovely.

And I decided to throw together an impromptu costume party for tomorrow night. Theme is Midsummer Night's Dream. Costume is anything Shakespearean, Roman or Greek god or goddess (think toga), or faerie folk. It will be a small gathering with a few friends, but everyone is welcome. We should be gathering around 8:30pm till ???
I'll light the candles, turn up the hot tub, open the billiard room, and hopefully, as the weather cooperates tomorrow, we'll open all the french doors to the balcony and enjoy the great new city views (thanks to the tree trimming crew which was here yesterday).

Tomorrow promises to be sunny with clear skies for the longest night of the year! Yay! So, if you're in town, drop by for fruit, cheese, and wine, a few lines from Shakespeare's Midsummer Night's Dream, maybe a solstice dance, and gratitude for a fantabulous summer ahead and new friends!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Countdown to take off...

(Photo by Charles Croninger-2008)

Yep, I'm off to Europe in 12 days! Still have a ton of errands to do before I head to France, but I'm trying to slow down and enjoy the relaxed pace of summer vacation.

Good news about my car! My Honda dealer says they can cut me a new key (to replace the one which was stolen a month ago) for only $7. Yippee!

Gotta run down to Salem to get Sam's international travel papers, pick up a few more items for the trip, and we'll be ready!

My college roommate is coming to visit before I take off. We'll head over to the wild Oregon coast for a day or so. Sweet! If you haven't been to the Oregon coast before, you don't know what you're missing. The beaches are rugged with mountains dipping into the ocean. And they are NOT overcrowded like the beaches in California. Nice.

Oh, and I already tried out my new shirt (an early birthday gift from my sister) which is the latest in clothing technology: SPF 50+, sleeves that are long but can be rolled up, antimicrobial fibers (to prevent odors), and moisture wicking. Ingenious. I love it. The new hiking/sport sandals from Keen (TM)are pretty good, though I think I need a bit more arch support.

Still looking for one more good, comfy pair of shoes for the summer trek. Thinking of getting a pair of trail running shoes, for super-duper cushion. Decided not to toss my old hiking boots after all. I started to pitch them (had 'em since 2002), but wore them last week hiking in the Sierra Nevadas and found that they are still in great shape and supported my ankles well in rocky, gravelly, scrabbly terrain. So the Timberlands (TM) stay. What can I say? They make a boot which lasts and lasts.

Well, time is slipping away and I haven't done a 5 hour hike yet today, so I'm off. It's a nice, cloudy day, perfect for hiking and NOT getting sunburned. YAY!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Wishful thinking and the power of hope

Well, three weeks ago my backpack and wallet were stolen as I hiked with my closest friend in the Portland area. Bummer! The thieves bashed out her car window and stole her purse and my backpack. We think we arrived at the car within 30 minutes of the incident, so we were able to cancel credit cards and bank cards immediately.

The good news is that Sarah's wallet was returned to her within 36 hours! Yay! All that was missing was the cash (about $15). The rest of her cards and everything was still intact. Frankly, I would gladly have PAID the thieves NOT to break Sarah's car window.

I'm still hoping and believing that my backpack with my car key (the only one I had) and my wallet will be returned to me BEFORE I leave for Europe. My bank cards have been replaced, account numbers all changed, but still waiting on replacement cards for everything else (social security card, insurance card, drivers license, etc.).

I was hoping to find a round-trip airfare for less than $1000. So far, the prices have been hovering around $1600. But I'm believing for a better deal. Found just what I wanted on StudentUniverse.com, but they say I am too old! Age discrimination!!! I qualify as a full-time grad student but some flights are only for students under 25 years of age. Darn it! I'm still hoping that I will get this price.

I hate to buy more things, but I did get Sam's doggy backpack, collapsible bowl, doggy shoes and socks (in case his feet get sore), and travel diapers for the air transport part of the trip. Still need a more affordable airline-approved kennel and need new hiking shoes for me. Happily, my wonderful Italian neighbors (who work for Nike) have offered me a family-discount pass at the Nike family Discount store to help me get outfitted for the trek. Now, I'm believing for favor along the pilgrimage route for places which will allow my dog to stay here and there. We'll be camping sauvage, or primitive camping, along the way to save money.

The itinerary at this point is below:

July 2: Depart Portland
July 4: Arrive Paris, catch train from Paris to Calais
July 5: start walking! from Calais to Wissant (approximately 9 miles)
July 6: Wissant to Guines (app. 10 miles)
July 7: Guines to Alembon (12 miles)
July 8: Alembon to Wisques (app. 12-15 miles)
July 9: Wisques to Enguinegatte (10 miles)
July 10: Enguinegatte to Amettes (LAUNDRY DAY) (9 miles)
July 11,12: Amettes (camp out) to Arras (25 miles)
July 13: Arras to Peronne (possibly campout) (27 miles)
July 14-16: Peronne to Tergnier (campout) to Laon (app. 23 miles + 23 miles)
July 17: Laon to Corbeny (campout) (12-15 miles)
July 18, 19: Corbeny to Reims (the Cathedral where Joan of Arc helped crown the dauphin king of France is here). Stay at Reims 2 nights, July 18, 19. LAUNDRY. (18-20 miles...trip total so far, 200 miles)
July 20-21: Reims to Chalons-en-Champagne (this is nearly 28 miles...possibly camp out again- one to two day walk, depending....)
July 22-23-24: Depart Chalons-en-Champagne, camp out 1/2 way, arrive Brienne-le-Château (stay 2 nights). LAUNDRY, etc. - 44 miles
July 25: Depart Brienne-le-Chateau, arrive Bar-sur-Aube (15 miles)
July 26: Depart Bar-sur-Aube to Clairvaux (9 miles)
July 27: Depart Clairvaux, walk to Chateauvillain (10 miles) stay 1 night. (Trip total so far...300 miles)
July 28-29-30: Chateauvillain to Arc-en-Barrois (10 miles)Celebrate my birthday, rest, LAUNDRY
July 31: Arc-en-Barrois to Langres (15 miles)
August 1-2-3: Langres to camping (15 miles) to Dampierre-sur-Salon (15 miles) Stay at Domaine des Papillons- 2 nights
August 4-5-6: Dampierre-sur-Salon to camping (15 miles) to Besancon (16 miles) Stay at Besançon 2 nights (trip total so far, approximately 395 miles)
August 7: Train to Lausanne, Switzerland. Stay in Lausanne 1 night. (75 miles)
August 8: Catch ferry from Lausanne to Villeneuve (OR take the S1 commuter train, 23 miles)
August 9: Walk from Villeneuve to St. Maurice (15 miles)
August 10: St. Maurice to Martigny (9 miles)
August 11-12: Martigny to Orsieres (17 miles- this will be very steep, may need to camp out one night and adjust to altitude, dependent on weather forecast-Alps)
August 13-14: Orsieres to camp out to Bourg Saint Pierre (30 miles- trip total, approximately 500 miles, again weather permitting)
August 15-16: Bourg Saint Pierre to the Hospice at the Grand Saint Bernard Pass (8 miles at 8113 feet above sea level or 2473 meters high) LAUNDRY and spiritual retreat: stay at Hospice Hotel which accommodates dogs, of course!)
August 17: Walk from the Pass to Aosta, Italy (20 miles down hill)
August 18: REST in Aosta- do LAUNDRY
August 19: BUS from Aosta to Fidenza/Pontremoli
August 20-21: Cross the Cisa Pass at Pontremoli to Sarzana (24 miles)- possibly camp out one night
August 22-23: hike from Sarzana to Pietrasanta (Marina...on the coast) 18 miles- camp out on beach one night, then one night at Youth Hostel on beach
August 24: BUS from Pietrasanta to Pisa
August 25: Pisa sightseeing + LAUNDRY
August 26-27: Bus from Pisa to Siena, sightseeing in Siena
August 28: Walk from Siena- 17 miles south- to Campriano (the Vineyards)
August 28, 29, 30, 31: Stay at Campriano (TRIP TOTAL = 980 miles) LAUNDRY
see www.campriano.com
September 1: Hike from Campriano to San Quirico d'Orcia (21 miles = 1000 miles trip total)
September 2: San Quirico d'Orcia to La Scala to Radicofani (16 miles)
September 3: Radicofani to Acquapendente (14 miles)
September 4: Acquapendente to Bolsena on the Lake (11 miles) camp out
September 5-6: Bolsena to Viterbo (19 miles), stay in/near Viterbo 2 nites- LAUNDRY
September 7-8-9: Viterbo to camp out 1/2 way to Campagnano di Roma (30 miles),
stay at C di R Sept 8& 9.
September 10: Walk from Campagnano di Roma to La Storta (10 miles)
September 11: La Storta to Roma!!! (10 miles)
September 11-12-13: Sightseeing in Rome (TRIP TOTAL= just over 1100 miles) LAUNDRY, POST Office- pick up Sam's kennel from Post Restante.
September 15: Rome to Portland

Obviously, I tried to schedule rest time and days to do laundry or run errands, and I hope to stop over at internet cafes to post photos and blogs as often as possible. So the schedule will have to be flexible, somewhat. I tried to build in a cushion around days on which I hope to travel (in other words, I tried to plan for the chance that I might be walking more slowly than I had anticipated). I think I can walk between 2-3 miles per hour with full backpack and dog on/off leash. So with long summer days, I should be able to cover anywhere from 10-20 miles in a day, possibly 25 if the terrain is flat.

My major benchmarks are arriving at Reims by July 18+/-, Chateauvillain/Arc-en-Barrois by July 28, Grand Saint Bernard Pass Hospice by August 15th, Campriano by August 28, Roma by September 11, and back to Portland September 15.

Hope this helps! And I'd love for you to join for all of it or for any part of the trek. I've made reservations at the vineyard at Campriano, just south of Siena. Only 50 euros per night per person at the villa/estate. I've been telling all my friends to meet me there or in Arc-en-Barrois if they want to hang out.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

How much is enough?

How much is enough?-
The rhetoric of sufficiency in a postmodern, neo-capitalist era


The basic premise of the Global Sufficiency Summit, held at MIT in Cambridge, MA on April 10-11, 2010, is that when we stop trying to get more of what we don’t really need, it frees up oceans of energy and resources which makes a difference when we use those resources to honor, nourish, and share what we already have. The Western world has perpetuated the concept of scarcity for far too long. Scarcity drives our economies, our markets, our businesses, our governments. In a culture which clamors for more, advertisers’ messages tell us we are not enough, that we are insufficient somehow, that we need more things to be fulfilled.

The “American dream” has become little more than a grasping for more; more material possessions, more resources, bigger cars, more money, more prestige, and more power. Reduced to clichés, the American dream is little more than thinly veiled greed and mass consumerism. “He who dies with the most toys wins” is one example of this gluttony for more. The end result of this greed to use more, to have more, to take more is evident in our current global crises: ecological, economic, and educational. In contrast, sufficiency says that the earth, the universe has more than enough for everyone to have what they need.
Lynne Twist, co-founder of The Hunger Project and the Pachamama Alliance, spoke to the Summit members, calling them to action, to heal the concept of scarcity in this generation; to wake up from the nightmare which we call the American dream, and to be awake enough to see the role we can each play in this sustainability conversation. The summit called for a paradigm shift: from competition to collaboration, from individual-only to collective values, from scarcity to enough, from fear to love, and from the mentality of accumulation to the concept of being channels through which resources flow. It was a call to rethink the concept of wealth. What is true wealth? More money? More things? Consuming more? Or is real wealth found in health, in relationships, in balance, in harmony with each other and with the universe? Real wealth is visible in an ethic of care. It is the power of what is possible.

We understand that we now have the unparalleled opportunity for humanity to collaborate to change the course of history for the next thousand years or more. We recognize that stewardship allows for flourishing communities (human and non-human), connectedness, and the web of life. It’s not about stuff. This sustainability conversation is about relationships. So, we are faced with questions like ‘what is the new lifestyle which will allow everyone to flourish?’ How do I shift my purchasing decisions to reflect my values? What are my values? Do I reinforce the dominant ideology of scarcity by trying to solve the problems of scarcity? What makes this issue personal for me? Transformation comes when we make this personal.

The concept of sufficiency is based in a value system which recognizes the interconnectedness of all things. It is a whole systems approach to evaluating our human systems. It demands that we 1.) show up, 2.) trust that there is enough (enough time, enough money, enough sleep, enough love, enough resources, enough breath, etc.), 3.) be present- in the moment, be awake, and 4.) don’t judge others for their perceived excesses- instead we ask ourselves, “How much is enough for me?”

I was challenged by the entire summit and found it invaluable! I met leaders in sustainability from around the world. I’m still processing concepts like identifying fear-based actions in my own life and trying to consider love-based actions instead. As far as facilitating discussions, I’m amazed at the level at which participants connected. I believe that the long-term effects of the summit will be evident in the relationships formed during the weekend. I look forward to learning and participating more in this conversation as it relates to sustainability!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Vive la resistance!

I'm following up on a friend's encouragement to blog about this topic of abuse and resistance. Hope you find it encouraging and useful in your own journey. Most of my education this year has been focused on how adults (starting at age 17) learn and develop. 
 
It is unfortunate in any situation, whether in the guise of religion or education or corporation or whatever, when leaders use a prescriptive approach. I've been guilty of this myself. A prescriptive approach usually comes in the form of language such as, "Should", "Must", "Have to", "It's my way or the highway" or "You have to do it such-and-such a way or else..." or "There's a right way to do things and wrong way to do things..." This dualistic approach (right OR wrong, left OR right, black OR white, good OR bad) sets people up for failure, not meeting expectations, not living up to someone else's standards, guilt, shame, and grief. 

 The prescriptive approach in teaching says, "You must learn what I tell you to learn and how I tell you to learn it." In the corporate world, it may sound like..."This is the way we've always done it." It even invades our cultural expectations, "But WE don't do it like that. My way is the best way. Everyone SHOULD do it my way." 

 I have to laugh, because MOST adults begin to transform their narrow view of things as they approach the age of 18. We begin to question why we do what we do, why we believe what we believe, is it truth for us? We begin to differentiate ourselves from our parents' values and norms. We see that the world doesn't fall into Either/Or categories. Unless you are like my old friend, Bob....

I remember camping with him many times over the years. On one particular occasion, he actually told me that I had heated up the water (to be used to wash our dishes) wrong! I laughed! He was dead serious. At which point, I asked him if I had the basic concept of boiling correct: fill pan with water, apply heat to the pan, water comes to boil. He still insisted that HIS way of bringing water to a boil was somehow different than my way and that HIS way was better. (I'm still unsure to this day how our ways differed at all!) Bob earned the nicknames of Vanilla Dictator (for insistence that HE was the standard of normal and that everyone else should think and act like him), Fluid Intake Police (for his insistence on a road trip that my roommate could not and should not purchase a large drink for the road, lest she have to stop along the way to pee, causing delays for the rest of the group), and Herr Smith** (another reference to his dictator style). ** I've changed my old friend's name to protect his identity and also in faith that perhaps even he has opened his perspectives a bit in the last few years. 

 It's a human condition, this wanting everything to be black OR white, right OR wrong. Wouldn't the world be easier to manage, to navigate if everything was clearly marked? But it isn't. Modern day (and I'm sure our ancient brothers and sisters, too) christians have lived in the realm of Either/Or for too long. We have forgotten that Jesus was the Paradox King. The paradox says things are Both/And, both Either/Or. Didn't Jesus say that one who seeks to save his life will lose it, while the one who loses his life will save it? That's the paradox. If you lose, you also gain. If you gain, you also lose. It's BOTH losing AND gaining. It's not either/or. What is sad to me is that after all these years, we're still writing formulas for living. Do this. Don't do that. It's the same thing Jesus held against the Pharisees, not that they kept the law, but that they kept it to the exclusion of others, to the adding to the burden of others, to the exclusion of mercy and love and grace and kindness and peace. 

 But this is the danger inherent even in coming out of an abusive relationship like so many have had at Teen Mania, Open Bible Fellowship, pick a church or school or institution... the danger is that WE, in turn, begin prescribing a different way to live. We say, "Manipulative pastor or teacher or administrator, your way is wrong. Everyone else, follow me! My way is better!" And now, we have made a prescription out of our experience for everyone else to follow. 

 In Chela Sandoval's (2000) dissertation on the Methodology of the Oppressed, she would call this meta-ideologizing. It is the term used to describe replacing one ideology for another. This is the danger: in our zeal to break away from oppression and to resist it and to renounce it, we form our own ideology and condemn our oppressors and establish a new form of oppression. This is the point where those who were oppressed now become the oppressors! When our old oppressors don't see the error of their ways, we begin to persecute them for not seeing the world as we do, for not following our ways, our prescription for life. This is that delicate spiderweb on which we try to balance our lives, our being... following Christ without making our experiences the dictation and prescription for everyone else. Here the old Greek saying plays out well: "To thine own self be true." To which I might add: "And stop worrying about everyone else. Extend enough grace to them to allow them figure it out on their own, in their own time, in their own way." 

 I'm still trying to make a decision on where I will spend my summer. I hear Oregon is gorgeous (breathtakingly perfect in summer) so I hope to take advantage of weekends between now and July 1. Then summer school will be over and I hope to hit the road. I've been accepted to a volunteer position in southern Spain (the Andalucia region) to work with Sunseed, an intentional community (ecovillage) on the edge of the desert for 6 weeks. I had hoped to go on to Morocco from there to begin setting up contacts for future projects and to work with indigenous tribes along the Sahara. Still trying to work out details. I had also considered trekking the ancient via francigena from Canterbury to Rome (or at least to the Gran San Bernardo Pass in Switzerland), taking my dog, Sam, along with me. I'm still tempted to do that... I've been entertaining the concept of silence and what that means in the context of oppression. Silence can be a profound tool of resistance (like when Jesus did not answer Pilate) or a tool used to oppress (like the Code of Silence, don't talk about abuse, pretend nothing bad is happening). 

 I have a feeling that I would have a lot of silence along the old pilgrimage trail.

 I've also been tossing around the idea of meeting with the Achuar Indians of the Andes (Ecuador and Peru) since I met Lynne Twist, cofounder of the Pachamama Alliance (www.pachamama.org) in Boston on April 10. Since then, I've gone on to one of the Pachamama Alliance seminars called "Awakening the Dreamer: Changing the Dream". So much of my own view of the world has shifted since I came to Portland at the end of September. If you had asked me then if I could envision myself being a facilitator at a Global Summit for the concept of Sufficiency, I would have laughed and probably thought you were a kook. And yet, I did indeed help facilitate discussions at MIT in Cambridge, MA just 2 weekends ago at the Global Sufficiency Summit. 

 All I know is that God is good. He directs my path in better ways than I ever could. I'm trying to stay open and flexible to his leading and trust that I will be where he wants me, when he wants me, meeting and encouraging those he entrusts to walk along this path, and that I'll have everything I need when I need it. It's a good place to be.