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Inspired by George Santayana's poem,
There May Be Chaos Still Around the World

" They threat in vain; the whirlwind cannot awe
A happy snow-flake dancing in the flaw. "


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Monday, May 9, 2016

Sacred ecology and the art of walking



“Take the Adventure, heed the call, now ere the irrevocable moment passes!’  ‘Tis but a banging of the door behind you, a blithesome step forward, and you are out of the old life and into the new!  Then some day, some day long hence, jog home here if you will, when the cup has been drained and the play has been played, and sit down by your quiet river with a store of goodly memories for company" (Kenneth Grahame, The Wind in the Willows).


As I contemplate my upcoming walking tour of the Scottish Highlands, I am reminded that Thoreau once wrote, "When we walk, we naturally go to the fields and woods: what would become of us, if we walked only in a garden or a mall? (Thoreau, Walking).  People often ask me "why do you walk such long distances?  What's the appeal of such an arduous journey?"

How can I explain a thing which can only be felt or experienced in the soul?   “Spring was moving in the air above and in the earth below and around him, penetrating even his dark and lowly little house with its spirit of divine discontent and longing" (Kenneth Grahame, The Wind in the Willows).  How can one express this "divine discontent and longing"?   Thoreau goes on, as only he can, about the pleasures, the joys, the art of walking: "For I believe that climate does thus react on man-- as there is something in the mountain air that feeds the spirit and inspires.  Will not man grow to greater perfection intellectually as well as physically under these influences?"  Our latest research continues to confirm Thoreau's hypothesis that being in Nature heals the soul.  There is something so inspiring, so awing, so breathtaking about the beauty of nature.  For me, I start to feel broken and dysfunctional when I spend too much time indoors.  I need these treks to restore my soul, and find, as Byron said, "not that I love Man the less, but Nature more."        

The art of walking, of pilgrimage, lies in the ability to embrace the wonder, the awe, the joy of new horizons.  Robert Frost often describes this joy in nature in poems like "Birches" or "The Road Not Taken".  The art of walking is in the sheer pleasure of the thing!  It lies in the ability and intention to slow down, to be level with the earth, to embrace each moment, to be fully present to one's surroundings.  

And how cool is it to be able to visit one of the "thin places" of the world?  I think the appeal for me is the idea of a location, no matter how impractical or illogical, which evokes a sense of sacred ecology, a place where one could imagine fairies, elves, dragons, and mythical creatures exist.  A place where the sacredness of creation and the desire to know the Creator are possible.  When I think of "thin places", those places in which the veil between the sacred world and our mundane physical world seems transparent or thin, I think of these forest garden landscapes.  I believe and I hope that people are transformed by the beauty of places like the Highlands.      

Thin places are not places in which God or even the spirit world is more present, but in which we, ourselves, are transformed, more open, listening to the Spirit...God is the same everywhere.  But in those places, if we allow ourselves to strip down, to take off the masks, and to remove our own blinders or those things which hinder us, I believe we can experience God's peace, his love, his wisdom, his presence in ways which heal us, make us whole, and refresh us...making us more effective, more of our authentic selves which God created us to be.

Sacred places tend to convey a sense of the 'deep magic'.  This is not an animistic belief, but a deeper sense of the sacred in everything...and a reverence because God created this world.  In these places, we recognize that Jesus' incarnation is the pivotal moment of creation's return to God. His being and his word, in which all the universe is held together, calls us to life in him.  That life is sacred and we are called to join in the dance, to celebrate the seasons, to embrace the sacred, to no longer be separated from creation, but to recognize our own fragility as part of creation.

Sacred ecology recognizes this great disconnect from the earth.  It is what has contributed to our sad,  polluted, dilapidated planet.  Many Native American and indigenous tribes throughout the world call this disconnect, this worldview in which humans see themselves as separate from the rest of the created universe, a spiritual problem.  Because of this spiritual disconnect, we try to fill the empty spaces in our souls with things which can never satisfy, such as material goods...more things.

Ecological spirituality is an earth-based spirituality, whereas, spiritual ecology is more of a sacred awareness throughout creation.   Spiritual ecology is not a worship of nature, but rather an awareness of the sacred in creation, as evidenced by the inclusion in our stories of anthropomorphized and mythical characters, such as centaurs, dryads, naiads, elves, and fairies.  Anyone who grew up on classic fairytales or the stories of Lewis and Tolkien are not strangers to these mythical creatures.  C.S. Lewis, J.R.R. Tolkien and others felt this connection, too, to these archetypes as seen in their fictional works.  In fact, both authors wrote essays defending the use of fairytales as doorways to a world of imagination and creativity and deep connection to the earth.  We see this use of sacred ecology in their literature.  There is power in children's literature to evoke nostalgia or a deep longing for the sacred in nature, a spiritual ecology found in the imaginative works of L'Engle as well.

It is in this imaginative world that we find ourselves, as readers, co-creating.  The stories become more than stories.  We feel connected to a world of imagination, of possibilities, of overcoming impossibilities.  It's a world where mythical creatures are possible, a world in which animals speak and we can understand.  Didn't you ever wonder that in the story of Eden, Eve did not find it strange that a serpent spoke to her?  That she carried on a conversation with the creature?  That Adam did not question that an animal had spoken to Eve?  In the time before time, perhaps mythical creatures and talking animals did exist...  These fairytales reveal whole worlds of experiences to us which speak to our souls, as deep calls to deep; experiences beyond our own limited understanding (Lewis, essay on Fairytales).  We often feel this call from the deep when we are in nature.

A contemporary and colleague of C.S. Lewis, Dorothy L. Sayers would call this response a natural longing when the reader is called into the process of co-creating.  This incarnational power of creativity brings the reader into the story, no longer on the sidelines, but actively creating something with the author by imbuing the book with his/her own experiences, imagination, and life story.  We use this same incarnational creativity when we interact with nature.  As we journey through dark forests along lowly cattle paths, we bring our stories, our lives into each step.

In a perfect world, perhaps an idealized world, somewhere away from the unbelief of the scoffers, the haters, the folks who squash imagination or impractical possibilities or myths, there is a place where one could write and imagine and create and worship God and honor the universe as his creation.  A place where the invisible kingdom is almost perceptible.  In my heart of hearts, I have experienced this creative state in the rainforests of Oregon or hidden in the hills of Arkansas.  I believe I will experience this "thinness" in the Highlands of Scotland.  It's a place where I feel that I belong, where I'm meant to belong, where I can unleash the creative in me, a place where imagination can run wild and free.   I can't explain why.  I just feel drawn there.  The thin places are calling to me, to the deep places of my soul.  How can I not answer?  Like Ratty, in Kenneth Graham's "Wind in the Willows", I often feel the call of the wild, calling me to wander down....to saunter along unknown paths, to discover new worlds: "Here today, up and off to somewhere else tomorrow! Travel, change, interest, excitement! The whole world before you, and a horizon that's always changing!" (Grahame, The Wind in the Willows). 

Saturday, May 7, 2016

A new adventure ahead...in the Highlands

For those who may wonder where I've been for the last couple of years, I've been traveling.  Time flies.  I hadn't realized it had been so long since my last blog.  Perhaps I had nothing to say...  Though recently, I've had more time to reflect on my own personal philosophy of sacred ecology (the subject of a future blog, of course).

After graduation from Portland State University with my Master's in Sustainability Education and certification in Service Learning and an emphasis on Spirituality in Higher Education, I took some time off to spend with my aging parents.  My father was diagnosed with 2 forms of leukemia and was starting chemo therapy in the fall of 2013.  I tried to help get their house ready to sell, but was limited in what I could accomplish due to my mother's "collecting".  They are still in the process of relocating to Texas after 45+ years in Illinois.  Forty-some years of stuff...Ugh.  I have never wanted to have so much stuff that it weighed me down, though I do still own a few boxes back in Portland, Oregon at a kind friend's home.  She lets me store my few wordly possessions there, mostly books...

So, much to my joy and great satisfaction, I spent a lot of time in the outdoors, clearing overgrown woods.  I loved it.  The fall of 2013 was the most colorful I can remember.  Deep crimsons, brilliant reds, glowing yellows and golds, and regal purples covered the landscape.   I was privileged to explore the midwest with friends in the area.  I did some biking with an old high school friend.  We biked along the Illinois River down at Grafton, Illinois and hiked from time to time at Pere Marquette State Park.  Elsah, Illinois is still a quaint colonial-looking village with its stone cottages.  I love wandering the streets of Elsah.  We also visited Principia College, a Christian Scientist stronghold, built along the edge of the cliffs overlooking the confluence of the Mighty Mississippi and the Illinois River.  One of the most gorgeous campuses in the United States...

Winter back in Illinois was delightful.  We had several deep snows and ice storms, which transformed the bare trees into silent, glimmering sentinels.  I love the hush that falls in a deep snow.  Here is nothing on earth to match the gentle hush of fluffy snowflakes gliding to the earth, muffling out all other sounds, except the occasional cardinal.  I even tried my hand at snow sculpting for the first time in my life (outside of the traditional snowman, of course).

I rambled along the trails at Beaver Dam State Park near my parents' old home.   I even witnessed a "bird tornado" or a kettle of birds.  Hundreds of birds swarmed in a tornado-like formation above Beaver Dam's Lake.  Breath-taking...so awesome to behold.

In April of 2014, I moved on to Southern California, where I've done some local hiking in the mountains just behind the house.  My dog, Sammy is now 14 years old.  I can't believe it's already been 6 years since our last great adventure on the via Francigena, from Calais, France to Rome, Italy.  Since 2010, I've been to India twice, and visited England, Belgium (twice), and Cypress.  I feel incredibly privileged to have taken so many "road(s) less traveled", and indeed, it has "made all the difference" (Robert Frost).

For a couple of years now, I've been longing to go to Scotland.  I can't explain why.  I just feel it calling me, much like my trek to Oregon.  I couldn't explain why I felt called to Oregon.  I just did.  I felt it in my spirit.  Oregon was calling me in 2008.  I answered that call in the fall of 2009.

I remember being in Portland in the autumn of 2009, my feet barely touching the sidewalk, as I giddily and gratefully lived out my dream.  Portland and Oregon still hold my heart.  So many wonderful friends...so many solitary saunters along mossy silvan paths...stepping into the rainforest only steps from my gracious home, caring and kind professors who challenged me to expand my world view.

THE NEW ADVENTURE
And now, I get to walk out another dream...trekking through the Highlands of Scotland in June of this year.  I am so grateful to be able to make this once in a lifetime journey.  The West Highland Way is a 96 mile trek through the Loch Lomond National Scenic area, traversing Ben Nevis, one of Scotland's highest mountains.  It is rugged and steep and gorgeous.  It is probably my last long trek with Sammy, my faithful cocker spaniel.     I've got 6 weeks to prepare for the journey, but we have much higher mountains here, so I'm not too concerned.  Though the highlands get loads of snow, the highest peaks there are around only 4,000 feet above sea level.

I wish I could express in words how I just feel such gratitude.  I am overwhelmed at the thought of the freedom of the road.  Traveling with the basic necessities and my faithful dog by my side.  Stripped of most worldly possessions.  There is an incredible freedom of the soul when we strip away the worldly trappings.  It cannot be explained.  It is in the place beyond words...

I'm thrilled to be walking in the birthplace of the "thin places", sacred places where the veil between this physical world and spiritual world is thin.  Though I believe that these thin places are more a reflection of the openness or state of our own hearts, I love the idea of connecting to the Divine through nature.  The Apostle Paul said that God can be known and understood through nature (Romans 1).  I love the motto at Camp Stevens in Julian, CA which reflects my own state of soul: Openness. Gratitude. Connection. Wonder.

I can't even explain my giddiness at the thought of being there in Scotland for midsummer's night.
Perchance to dream... The long, long daylight hours.  To be able to walk slowly from village to village with no urgency to get there before dark, because daylight does not fade till late at night.

WHY GO?  WHY RAMBLE? 
People ask me, "why?".  Why do you always travel alone?  Why do you have to go do such extreme vacations?  Why do you walk such long distances?  I can't seem to find the words to explain what is in my soul.  Only other pilgrims can know what it means to walk, to trek through the magnificence of nature, to slow down, to be a "leather tramp". It's the "wonder", the awe, the curiosity, the joy that drives me to walk the lonely places of this earth.


How can you explain that kind of  joy? It simply is part of your being. It's the reason we can endure hardships. Joy drives us onward. Joy leads us. Jesus suffered the cross and endured its shame for the joy set before him. He knew who he was and where he was going. Joy led him on. That's how I can endure the pain of a long distance trek. It's not just the destination that drives me on, despite sore knees or thirst or just sheer exhaustion at the end of a long day's trekking.   It sounds trite now, I know, but it truly is the joy in the journey, in the discoveries of each new crag, each new vista, each new friend met along these quiet paths.

I suppose I've always been a free spirit. Some of my earliest and most precious memories are of long, quiet strolls through the fields, meadows, and forests of my home in Illinois as a very young child of 4 or 5. I distinctly remember the call of the wild, especially in autumn, somehow calling me to wander, to breathe in the earthy scent of decaying leaves, to embrace the crisp autumn air, to recall the sweltering, deep green heat of summer or the musty scent of tall cornfields.

Lord Byron once wrote: " There is pleasure in the pathless woods, there is rapture in the lonely shore, there is society where none intrudes, by the deep sea, and music in its roar; I love not Man the less, but Nature more."

I'm currently reading Thoreau's essays on walking.  Though he starts out a bit too condescendingly, I get what he means about just getting out in nature, taking the slow way, journeying under your own steam.  Even in the 1800's he lamented the shrinking of natural spaces.  I can only imagine how horrified he would be to see the lack of open spaces in our modern world. But I hope to explore those few remaining sacred places while I can. So when others ask me, "why", I answer, "Because I can." For me, that is reason enough. Why not? The day will come, when I can no longer trek in solitude. Until then, I simply walk because I can.